Following God One Step at a Time

Let It Go


Ok, we know the popular Disney song “Let It Go”.  

But do we know how to let it go?

I just finished reading the book “The Way of Letting Go” by Wilma Derksen.  Wilma is an expert in letting go!  All I can say is “Wow”! 

This book is so real, so honest, so true.  This book is about letting go, and about living life in an imperfect world.  Wilma Derksen has lived what no one should have to live through, but she did it, and did it well.  What is the “The Way of Letting Go”?  It is about facing tragedy and finding forgiveness by letting go.

Don’t turn away from forgiveness.  You may want to, but don’t.  Forgiveness is the way to healing.  Forgiveness is the way to peace.  If you have struggled through difficulties and pain in your life, then read this book.  It will help you let go, live your life, forgive, and move on.  It will help you find hope for a better day tomorrow.

The author was not born knowing how to forgive.  She did not get a degree at college on forgiveness.  Forgiveness is not taught in school.  Wilma learned how to forgive by experiencing tragedy and not having any other way to cope and survive. She learned how to forgive in “the school of hard knocks”, real life.

I went through six years of battling cancer.  I used forgiveness to help me heal.  I can relate to some of the chapters in this book — Letting go of fear; letting go of the happy ending; letting go of the old me; letting go of my expectation of fairness. Other types of letting go that I didn’t know, that is where this book taught me the most.  Letting go of guilt and blame; letting go of my ego; letting go of closure.

This letting go process is very healing.  Some of it is difficult.  It doesn’t need to be done in any specific order. It shouldn’t be done in a hurry. Letting go is a process that brings forgiveness.  Forgiveness brings peace and healing and allows us to move forward with our life.  

If you are stuck in blaming someone; or feeling life has not been fair to you; or you keep searching for a happy ending, then maybe you need to read this book.  

Look for it  >HERE.  Read a bit of it online just click the book cover >HERE.

If every time you think about moving forward, doing something new, you say — “Yeah but…”, then you need to do some letting go.

If you can’t stop crying, you need to do some letting go.

I am going to re-read this book, at least some of the chapters, so I can make more progress toward real forgiveness.  Wilma is a great role model to follow.  Read her book slowly, don’t rush it.  This is not a book to speed read.  It is full of useful information.  Wilma uses her own life to explain how to let go, so you can forgive.

This is a really good book.  It made me yearn for more forgiveness in me.  It gave me a better understanding of what victims of crime go through.  Wilma is good at sharing that.  I don’t want to spoil the impact of the book, so I won’t tell you the details here.

If you read it, you will be surprised what you learn.

Buy the book HERE.


(I did receive a free copy of this book from BookLook Bloggers, so I could write an honest review.  Everything you read in this book review is my own opinion.)

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Humbled by Love

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Have you ever been humbled by something another person did?

Kent and Amber Brantly went to Liberia to provide health care in an area with few doctors and little medical supplies.  Kent is a doctor and Amber is a nurse.  They also have two children, and they all moved to Liberia.  They continued to work there even during the deadly Ebola virus epidemic.  Reading their book, >“Called by Life, I was amazed and humbled by their willingness to help strangers, knowing the dangers of helping people with Ebola. 

During their time in Liberia, only one person out of one hundred survived Ebola at the hospital where the Brantleys worked.  Kent did get Ebola, and nearly died.  He was evacuated by airplane to continue treatment in Atlanta, Georgia.  He survived after a month long ordeal.  His wife Amber and their two kids had left Liberia a few days earlier to head to the U.S. for a family wedding.  They did not get the disease.  Yet Kent and Amber had been willing to risk it.  Amazing!

Kent says in the book that he was humbled by all the doctors and nurses who volunteered to take care of him, even though he had a deadly and very contagious disease.  I know that I too was humbled by all the people praying for me when I was battling cancer for several years.  I was also humbled by my cancer doctor, who was available by phone 24/7 during my treatments.  During cancer I never felt so loved, not just by friends and family, but by people who did not know me. 

Part of love is compassion for other people.  Going through a trauma yourself gives us compassion for hurting people.  Whether we experience a car accident that puts us in the hospital, or cancer that requires years of treatments, or get too sick to even get out of bed, the experience gives us a new level of compassion for anyone suffering a serious health concern.

Somehow our fear gets overshadowed by the compassion.  And our heart that did not care about strangers, instead fills with compassion.  It is one way that God can use a difficult experience we suffer through to grow our spiritual capacity for love.  As Jesus said, the second most important commandment is “love your neighbor”.  The thing is, for people like the Brantlys, a neighbor is even a stranger half-way across the world.  Yes, humbling love.

It is so easy to make excuses not to help someone.  When you feel compassion, somehow the excuses don’t matter anymore. 

>Click Samaritan’s Purse for more information on medical missions.

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The Secret Power

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The Secret Power, of speaking God’s word” is a book by Joyce Meyer.

I have come back to this book over and over.  It has been so helpful to me.

The book is broken up into topics (like anger, worry, and loneliness), and lists Scriptures that are relevant.  We are supposed to read the Scripture out loud, maybe even memorize it, so we can repeat it whenever we need it

Most issues like anger, worry, and loneliness, do not go away forever when we speak Scripture over it.  Those feelings may weaken, or they may go away for a while.  When the feelings return, we can use Joyce’s book to find the Scriptures to help us again.  This is why I have kept my copy, and refer to it when I need help with a problem.

For me I have dealt often with fear, and the need for healing.  When I was battling cancer, I used Scriptures and prayer.  Here are two Scriptures I used listed in this book –

“I will listen closely to God’s words.  I will not let them out of my sight – I will keep them within my heart; for they are life to all who find them and health for the whole body.” (Proverbs 4:20-22)

“He sends His word and heals me and rescues me from the pit and destruction.” (Psalm 107:20)

After battling cancer for 4 years, today I have been cancer-free for 6 years!

Now, I find myself reaching for this book again.  This time I am dealing with grief and betrayal, so I looked at the Scriptures listed in the section on “forgiveness”.

If I forgive people their trespasses, my heavenly Father will also forgive me.” (Matthew 6:14) 

Joyce Meyer explains this Scripture further — If we forgive people their reckless and willful sins, letting them go, and giving up resentment, our heavenly Father will also forgive us.

This has helped me so much.  Today I am reaching toward forgiveness, and changing my attitude toward these people.  I will most likely need to return to this Scripture and Joyce’s explanation of it several times, but I will be able to forgive in time.  I plan to memorize this one sentence Scripture, so I can repeat it every time the feelings of grief, hurt and betrayal return.

God’s word is powerful!

 You have an entire Bible full of powerful Scriptures, but Joyce Meyer’s book helps to find the right Scriptures for our problems.

You can look inside the book at to see the entire list of 55 topics.

Click “Look Inside”.  The book is available for purchase there as well.


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Still Living After Cancer

I am now cancer free for 6 years.  Yay! That is something to celebrate!


I am still living, even though the doctors and I thought my time to die was near.  The doctors ran out of treatments, so I turned to God for guidance and healing.

I want to make it clear.  God healed me.

I did everything I could.  My husband did everything he could.  The doctors did everything they knew to do.  It was God who healed me.  I owe God to live a life He would approve of.  I don’t want these extra years God has given me to go to waste.

I have wondered what my life should look like, now that I am still living.  Choosing what to do with my life, not knowing if I would live 2 years or 10 years, is difficult.

It is true that no one knows how long they will live.  When battling a dangerous cancer, the odds of a short life span increase.  Cancer has a tendency to return.  I battled cancer three times.  Cancer changes what living looks like, and what living includes.  Abilities are restricted.  Energy is reduced.  Priorities change.

Living after cancer has put a pressure on me to live well, to make good choices, and focus in on a few priorities.

I have focused on making time for:  my husband and family, church, prayer, Bible study, being thankful, helping others, encouraging Christians, writing, learning, eating healthy, and exercise.

Maybe your choices would be different, but I feel good about these choices.  If I would die next week, I would be happy with my life.  I would face God knowing I lived well, and made good use of the years of life He gave me. 

What priorities would you choose to live if you only had a few years left to live?

To read more about my cancer battle click here.



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I Have a Question

Janet ThyWillBeDone

Have you survived something that left you with scars?

How did you survive it?

Are you in the middle of a difficult problem that leaves you feeling like your life is crashing down around you?  How do you deal with it?

Are you being accused of something you did not do?  What is your response?

Do you run away? Do you yell? Do you hide? Do you defend yourself?

Or do you grab hold of your faith in God and push through the problem, deal with it full of faith that God will get you through this?

If you do this, you will emerge stronger, wiser, and with a deeper faith in God.  You will know that God is always with you.  You will know that with faith in God you can handle any problem.  You will know that you are better prepared for the next problem

And those scars? The scars remind you that you fought a fierce battle, and with God’s help, you survived it.  You can’t live this life on your own.  You need God.  You need your faith in God.

Here are three examples of people who grabbed hold of their faith in God to deal with a major problem.  Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego —

Daniel 3:5-6 …you must fall down and worship the image of gold that King Nebuchadnezzar has set up.  Whoever does not fall down and worship will immediately be thrown into a blazing furnace.

Daniel 3:12 …Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego—who pay no attention to you, Your Majesty. They neither serve your gods nor worship the image of gold you have set up.”

Daniel 3:16-18 …Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego replied to him, “King Nebuchadnezzar, we do not need to defend ourselves before you in this matter.  If we are thrown into the blazing furnace, the God we serve is able to deliver us from it, and he will deliver us from Your Majesty’s hand.  But even if he does not, we want you to know, Your Majesty, that we will not serve your gods or worship the image of gold you have set up.

These three men did not change their behavior, but a new law could bring their lives to an end.  Yet, they did not defend their behavior, nor run, nor hide, nor yell, nor beg for mercy.  These three men grabbed hold of their faith in God, and knew that God would bring them through this, even if it meant they would die and go to God in Heaven. 

Miraculously they are thrown into the fiery furnace, and come out with no injuries.  God could have left them alive, but scarred.  They could have died.

No matter the outcome, they knew that the best way to deal with this problem was to grab hold of their faith in God.

Imagine how strong their faith is after this miracle!

 Several times in the Bible Jesus says “Your faith has healed you.” 

In Luke 7:50, Jesus also says “Your faith has saved you.” 

This is the power of faith! 



When the Unexpected Happens

We have all experienced when something unexpected happens.

It could be something good, like a surprise visit from a dear friend or relative.

It could be winning big money in a contest.

It could be landing that super job that you thought you had no chance to get.

There are also times when something bad happens.

It could be a devastating accident, or tornado.

It could be the death of a close relative from a heart attack.

You could lose your job, or find out you owe a huge amount on back taxes.

Whatever happens unexpectedly, how do we typically react?

1 — Many people would scream and cry first.  For most people our emotions jump in first, before clear thinking.

2 — After a quick text or phone call to your spouse or significant other, agreeing to talk more later.  That long talk with our spouse or significant other is very important to our decision.

3 — Next, many people want to tell their friends and relatives.  Our phones will be busy for hours sharing the news, and asking some of these people for advice what to do.

So where do many of us go for real advice, the kind we will likely use to make our decisions?

4 — For many unexpected events, we are left clueless about what is the best thing to do, so we contact a professionalDepending on what happened, we would talk to a lawyer or doctor or financial advisor. 

5 — And it should be no surprise, that surveys show many of us still go to Mom for advice!  Mom remains a big influence in difficult decisions, even more than Dad.

6 — So who do we often leave out?  Our best advisor, who cares the most about us, is usually not thought of until after all the others are contacted.  Our best advisor, and where we should go for advice first, is God.

I bet you knew that. Right?  But most of us don’t go to God first.  I know that I didn’t.  When I first found out that I had cancer, I went to my husband first, then we went to a doctor specializing in the type of cancer I had.  When everything was confirmed, and we had advice from the doctor, then I told my family (parents, children, aunts and uncles) and friends.  Then yes, I went to God, and my church, and put myself on as many prayer lists as I could. 

After more than a year of battling cancer, I was reading the Bible, and was struck by a verse that I had never used before, James 5:14.  “Is anyone among you sick? Let them call the elders of the church to pray over them and anoint them with oil in the name of the Lord.”


I read it again.  I knew that God was bringing this Scripture to my attention.  I then did what I should have done sooner, I called the elders and set up a time for them to pray over me and anoint me with oil.  This proved to be a turning point in my battle with cancer, although the battle continued for several more years, and I had the elders pray over me a second time, and had everyone I knew praying for me, when finally God healed me of cancer.  I have been cancer-free for five years now. (If you want to read more about my cancer experience, click here.)

The important point here, is that God should be our first consultation.

Why? Before you tell anyone else what happened, God already knows!  In fact, God already knows what your future holds.  He certainly can give you the best advice! 

So how do we do that?  How do we go to God first?  We always think of the important people in our life first, our spouse, our mom, our good friends, our children (especially if they are over 21); however, God is the best advisor we have, and God loves us more than anyone, and He knows everything about us.

This is what I do now—

 I learned an important lesson when battling cancer.  Now, I go to God first every morning.  It is as simple as that.  Since I pray with God every morning, that gives me the opportunity to ask Him for help, for guidance, for answers.  When I don’t have any big, important questions, I still pray with God every morning over a list of friends and relatives and church ministers, and all the families of these people too.  Although it is simple, it does take discipline to pray first every morning.  I pray before I eat breakfast, because otherwise I have found that I get busy and distracted and either don’t remember to pray, or just can’t find the time.  For some people, it might work better to pray before you go to bed at night. 

What is important is that you make it a rule, so it becomes a habit –  pray before you eat breakfast every day, ( or before you go to bed every night).  Choose what works for you, and stick to it. Every day!  That is the best way I have found to make sure that you go to God first when the unexpected happens.



Celebrate Christian Women Authors!

Books for your Christmas list!

I LOVE Christian women authors!  They are so generous, kind, and encouraging.  These women give so much of themselves to their writing and their readers!  They have open, loving hearts, sharing their life with us, praying for us.  They share the love of Jesus, and they share their insights with us, teaching their readers, and challenging us to live better as true Christians sharing the love of God, and following Jesus.

If you haven’t found this out, then you need to check out the books of some of the women I am celebrating here! (in no particular order)

Holley Gerth —  My favorite book of Holley’s is You’re Already AmazingYou can read part of it on Amazon, and even grab a copy for yourself.  Her website is

Ann Voskamp My favorite book of Ann’s, is the one I am reading now.  It is her full-color book Unwrapping the Greatest Gift, which prepares our hearts for Christmas.  It can be used as part of Advent leading up to Christmas, or you can read it any time of the year.  It is especially good when read out loud to children, because of the beautiful illustrations.  I am loving just reading it myself, and love all the beautiful colors, a real visual treat, as well as a good reminder of who Jesus is.  This book is a keepsake!  Take a look at it, or read my book review.  

If you haven’t read Ann’s first book, you really must read it, or one of the shortened versions of it “1000 Gifts”  I guarantee if you read it, and keep a journal listing the gifts, your life will change for the better. 

Mary DeMuth My favorite book of Mary’s is The Day I Met Jesus.  This is the only fiction book on this list.  It is about several women who are briefly mentioned in the Bible.  Mary brings them to life in this book.  (Mary co-authored this book with Frank Viola.)  I also helped launch this book.  Mary’s new website is

Jennie AllenMy favorite book of Jennie’s is simply called “Anything”.  The book is not simple.  It involves making a difficult decision.  Making that decision, will change your life.  Don’t just read about it, do it! Check out the new revised edition,  and here is my book review.   Jennie also leads the organization IF:Gathering, which will happen again this February and can be livestreamed.  Visit to learn more.

Margaret Feinberg My favorite book of Margaret’s is Wonderstruck.  This book was a life-changer for me!  I have read many of Margaret’s books now, but Wonderstruck was the first one that I read.  It opened my eyes to the wonder of God, to see His greatness all around us.  I also helped launch Margaret’s newest book, Fight Back With Joy  about her choice to fight through cancer with joy.  As a fellow cancer survivor, I really enjoyed this book too, so encouraging.

Beth MooreIt is very difficult for me to pick a favorite of Beth’s books.  Beth is the first Christian Women’s author I read as a new Christian.  Beth is also the author of the first Bible study I ever did.  To say that Beth Moore influenced me does not describe what Beth has done in my life.  I learned how to be a Christian from her.  I learned so much about Jesus from her.  I saw the love of Jesus in her heart, and my love for Jesus grew.  I never knew how good a relationship with Jesus could be, until I got to know Beth through her books, her Bible studies, her blog … Beth got me to memorize Scripture on her blog.  I never could do it before, but Beth encouraged all of us blog readers, and I went right along and amazed myself that in one year I memorized 24 Scriptures!  So thank you, Beth!  Drumroll please!…….. My favorite Book by Beth Moore is “Audacious”! It is her newest book, and to me, it is her best. Of course, I wrote a book review!

Joyce Meyer – Joyce inspires me.  She is the first woman preacher I ever heard of!  I have read so many of her books.  The book that helped me the most, when I needed it the most, is Be Healed in Jesus’ NameThis book helped get me through cancer.

Shelly MillerShelly is a blogger and so much more.  That’s how we met.  I include her in this list because I pray for her daily right along with the list of authors here.  Because her first book will be out next year!  I am so excited about it!  It is about the Sabbath (don’t know the title yet).  Watch for it!  You can read her now on her blog    Shelly also leads an online group about Christians who want to have a Sabbath day each week .  This is the Sabbath page on her blog.

These women are all very special to me.  I love them, appreciate them, and I pray for them daily.  I give thanks to God for introducing me to them through their writing, and giving me the opportunity to stay in touch with them through the internet.  I try to give back a little encouragement to each of them through emails, my blog and my book reviews, and comments on their blogs.  I have also helped to launch some of their books.  The relationships I have with these ladies proves to me that we can make friends on the internet, and these friendships can be a true blessing.  Pick up and read some of their books, and read some of their blog posts, and I think you will see that these are amazing women, and you will be enriched by getting to know them.



How to Be Loved

Do you feel loved?  Right now?  This moment?

There are times in all our lives, when we don’t feel loved.

Maybe it is a lack of love you feel, because of your parents not loving you enough.

Maybe it is a lack of love you feel, because your spouse does not love you enough.

Maybe it is a lack of love you feel, because of a friend who disappointed you.

Maybe it is a lack of love you feel, because you are single and have not found someone to marry.

But no matter what lack of love you feel,

Jesus Christ loves you every day, every moment, no matter what!

There is no lack of love in Jesus. 

Any lack of love you feel is a wound.  Jesus can heal your wounds.

There is no love greater than the Love of Jesus.

No matter who has hurt you, Jesus can heal your wounded heart.

Jesus can heal your wounded body, and heal your wounded mind.

Let Him love you.  Let Him cover you in healing love, healing grace, and in His healing power.

I have seen many prayers of healing answered. –>

There is no need to worry but if there is anything you need, pray for it, asking God for it with prayer and thanksgiving” (Philippians 4:6).

I know that “Prayer changes lives”!  I have seen it.

My life was changed by cancer, causing deadly damage to my body,

but I never lost hope.  I trusted God’s love, and He healed me of cancer.

(To read about how prayer healed me of cancer, click here.)

Open your heart to God.  Let Him in.  Trust His healing Love.

If you believe that Jesus is the Son of God and your Savior, then you have His Love! –>

“If anyone acknowledges that Jesus is the Son of God, God lives in them and they in God.  And so we know and rely on the love God has for us.  God is love.  Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in them.” (1 John 4:15-16)

No one and nothing can take the Love of Jesus away from us! –>

As Apostle Paul said, “Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or danger, or sword?” (Romans 8:35)  “No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us.  For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers,  nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.” (Romans 8:37-39)

Jesus himself said, “As the Father has loved me, so have I loved you. Now remain in my love.” (John 15:9) and “This is my command:  Love each other as I have loved you. “ (John 15:12) “By this all people will know that you are my disciples, if you have love for one another.” (John 13:35)

This is the kind of love that is real true love.  Seek this in the people in your life, and love them with this same love. –>

 “Love is patient, love is kind.  It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.   It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.  Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.  It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. “   (1 Corinthians 13:4-7)

This is the Love Jesus has for you.  His love is endless and true.  His love is trust-worthy.

Love Jesus as He said Himself,”Love the Lord your God with all your heart, and with all your soul, and with all your mind, and all your strength.” (Mark 12:30)

Love Jesus with true love, because that is how He loves you. 

He loves you always, every day, and forever.

What a blessing!


Prayer Should Not Be Boring

Prayer should not be boring!

If your prayers are boring,

or if you don’t take time to pray, because you think prayer is boring –

Read this! –

Prayer changes our lives.

I firmly believe this.


Because I have seen how God answers prayers,

beyond what we asked or even imagined!


Finding my husband-to-be in a most unlikely place, after praying for months,

and he was everything I prayed for, and more!

We have been happily married for 15 years now.

Finding a group of ladies in a Christian Bible study group 1,000 miles away,

after praying for Christian friends for several years,

and I am still in that group 10 years later, and have been greatly blessed

through their prayers and friendship.

Finding a home in 1 day, when a hurricane was approaching,

in a new town 1,000 miles away,

and we rode out our 1st hurricane safely and completely dry inside,

because God knew from our prayers that we needed a place to live, now!

Finding a specialist doctor who wanted to go for a cure,

after my current doctor had given up on me,

after praying for healing ,

and now I am cancer free for 4 years!

There is more I could tell you about prayers answered for me,

and for family, for friends,

and ministers at our church where we are members.

Prayer changes lives!

If you haven’t seen this in your life,

then you need to give your prayer life some power!

I highly recommend you read the book by Mark Batterson,

 The Circle Maker.

I found it at the public library, but today, until July 20,

you can get the paperback copy for only $5!

the link to buy it –

Circle Maker at Faith Gateway

I pray that you see this post soon enough to get this book at this greatly discounted price,

or you can find it at a library, or a second hand store. I pray that you will read this book.

This book will show you how to pray with faith, and with boldness,

to get answers that will change your life!

Mark Batterson says that God loves showing up in unexpected ways at unexpected times!

Mark says — It may seem like God is nowhere to be seen, but maybe God is setting the stage for a miracle.       This I know for sure: He’s ready to make His grand entrance.   All He is waiting for is your prayer.

Don’t wait to change your life.

Read this book.  Then pray like you have never prayed before!

I get absolutely nothing from recommending this book,

except spreading the information about praying boldly,

For God’s glory!

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Book Review — Fight Back With Joy

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Today I am reviewing “Fight Back With Joy” by Margaret Feinberg.

I have looked forward to reading this book for months.

It was published in early January, and I purchased it as soon as it was available.

It is a beautiful book about joy,

and about Margaret’s battle with cancer. 

It is a harsh battle,

and she shares with us her physical, emotional and spiritual battles with cancer.

Cancer is much more than a physical battle,

this is why Margaret chooses to “Fight Back With Joy”! 

She uses all the medical tools available, surgery, chemo, and radiation.

Through it all, she chooses joy.  It is beautiful to see.

I say “see”, because I have seen pictures of Margaret, with joy on her face,

and I imagine her handing out the red balloons to fellow cancer patients.

I can “see” her searching around her house for items to put on her joy wall.


This book is about walking through this battle with a friend,

who shares her pain and struggle with you.

Margaret brings you into her life, into her mind, and gives you a gift.

She gives you joy.

She gives you the weapon needed to fight any battle, JOY!

Once you read this book, you will be able to fight your own battles, with joy.

Janet JoyIsAWeapon

Margaret fought cancer, and being a cancer survivor,

I identified with many of her feelings,

and many of her experiences with medical treatments for cancer.

But “Fight Back With Joy” is not just about cancer,

it is about any difficult times in life.

Joy is a powerful weapon.

I have always used prayer in difficult times,

but now I will be able to add joy, too.

Thank you, Margaret, for writing this book.

To buy this book go to —

If you are interested in the Bible study, go to the Margaret Feinberg Store

To get more information about this book go to

On Twitter, go to  #fightbackwithjoy

I hope you enjoy reading this book as much as I did.

I love sharing about great books that I have read!